I loved you in a way
I didn’t know how to love anyone else.
You were the soft place
my heart finally rested—
the one person who made the world feel less heavy
and my future feel less far away.
You were my choice—
every day, every moment,
even in the silence,
even in the confusion,
even in the parts of me
I never said out loud.
I know things changed.
I know I wasn’t perfect.
But the love I had for you?
That was real in a way I can’t shake loose.
You were my one-of-one—
something rare, something sacred,
something I don’t want to replace.
You knew parts of me
no one else cared to see.
You held pieces of me
I never thought anyone could understand.
You loved me gently, fiercely, honestly—
and now I’m standing here,
trying to say that losing you
feels like losing a version of myself
I was proud to be becoming.
The best version of myself—
the version you helped me step into
just by loving me.
You weren’t just someone I loved.
You were someone I believed in.
And I still do.
What I want you to remember
You were never an option.
You were never a temporary moment.
You were never “just another person.”
You were the one I prayed for
before I even knew what I needed.
You were the love that changed me—
the love that taught me what trust feels like,
what softness feels like,
what coming home feels like.
And maybe I didn’t say it enough.
Maybe I didn’t show it enough.
But God—
I hope you know I loved you more deeply than my words ever managed to tell you.
If this is goodbye,
I’ll carry you gently,
carefully—
the way I hope I held you
the whole time.
But if there’s even the smallest chance,
even the faintest spark—
I’d choose you again.
Every version of you.
Every version of us.
Because maybe our time was cut too short.
But within the time we shared,
within every moment we created,
I treasured you—
I valued you—
more than anything.
My love and my respect for you
will always be there.
Maybe this won’t have to be the end.
Time will tell.
I’ll see you in this future—
and hopefully in all the ones to come.
Because dreams do come true,
and loving you
was the closest thing to a dream
I’ve ever lived.